Sleep est tres importante

Never drive when one's feeling very tired. This is especially when it is associated with a co-morbid status of progressive detioration in mental and congnitive function. End result will be Kapong! Shattered and short circuit rear end signal light on the blind side...

A Delayed Appreciation

Been suffering from bad kharma recently. Seems like everything i had said in the past or maybe did was coming back to haunt me. Think i will realy need to be more prudent about what i said or do from now on.

Anyway, i know its been a week but i think i really felt very blessed that i managed to win the best poster presentation last week at the KKH ASM. I know its a 1-in-4 chance then but must still thank heaven for presenting me with this opportunity. I recalled the disappointment i had when i realised i was not going to France for my elective and the astonishment when i missed out on my first 2 choices of orthpaedics elective posting and eneded up doing my 3rd choice psaeds posting at KKH ICU. I was a bit shell shocked then as i was not even one of those who wanted to do paeds among the people i know. Oh well, i know i stepped into KKH thinking things always happen for a reason and thus went about on my first day of posting apprehensive but happy. I still remembered being given 2 projects to choose from between me and KY. The slackness was still inside me (hangover from hols) and thus i was actually tempted to choose the other proj which i think could be completed relatively fast. But the nice me decided to let KY choose and sadness... he took it and so i was left with the one which need continuous follow-up. I was like oh-no there goes my dream of slacking...

But like what i always believe in, things always happen for a reason. In the end, i actually completed my project before him, him running into problem with protocol and everything, leading to a delayed commencement of his project. And whoa, my paper actually made it all the way to the end. The reality did not really sunk in until the dinner when the presenter used flowery terms to credit my paper and i was like is it really that good? But one thing for sure is that i realised i may have just opened up a path to do paediatrics if i so desire, (just like the video i have filmed for surgery last year), only that this time round its twice the prestige. I really felt very blessed for things to turn out this way, grateful to the way my guiding stars have been watching over me. I mean i went into the elective with expectation of other things and yet i came out of it with something that could have a big impact on me in the future. What else can i be complaining of? Though its true that i have experienced happiness, anger, sadness and joy (xi, nu, ai, le) throughout this 3-month period, my belief that things always happen for a reason remained strong. Just have faith and trust whatever heaven has put in place for me, taking things as they come along. Like they have always been in the past, i believe they will turn out right, impossible as it may seem because i have faith :)

Decision time has come and i've decided to not continue German for this semester.
So to make up for this decision......

Vote me as Class Rep.
I m serious!!! ^=^

Combined Scientific Meeting

This weekend was the combined scientific meeting, an event to mark the end of all the research work that i had done during the elective period. Haha I marveled at the symbolism of this event. After the presentation this afternoon, I really had the urge to want to expand my study, to set up a protocol that could be implemented to collect results. The entire elective posting has been the most beautiful moment of my life so far, and I really treasure everything that had happened during those times. Deep in my heart, I wish to follow up on this project and every other thing else, a continuation of all things rather than a termination. Yet I also understand that I had to balance these against the backdrop of being distracted during my final MBBS. What if things do not go according to what I had hoped it would be? Is it worth that big a risk? I know its never going to be easy but I think the joy and satisfaction derived beats everything else. The uncertainty of what will turn out may seem daunting but I believe the end product will be worth it. And thus at this point of time, I think I m still more inclined to being willing to take such a risk. Haha may the Force be with me ^=^

Oh just in case u guys are wondering what my project is about, well, if I do not remember wrongly, I did promise to say something about the project that I was doing after I had done it, so here it goes. The project is about whether we should do X-rays in kids who just had their ETT removed. This procedure really seemed outdated and thus my aim was to get some concrete evidence (EBM) to support our case. Yup, i realised that it is only when u start writing papers that u realize the significance of doing such studies. I mean last year CHP project was quite a farce. I dunno why but maybe its because I did not understand the full meaning of such projects. Thus I was more excited about the logistics aspect of the project, doing the design and setting up the area of study rather than analysis. Analysis and results were all Greek to me then. But this time round, I felt the impact of embarking on my project. I realized that if I managed to do it well, and achieve good results, I would be doing a lot of good. The patient will not be subjected to unnecessary costs and radiation. And as I explored and realized the possible loopholes in my project, I wanted to do much more to ensure they are corrected, not as a mean of covering my ass but a mean of ensuring the idea is put across strongly. Such results would have lesser impact if there were major flaws and it would turn out to be a waste of time and money with no true values. This had been a real eye opener for me and I think I will be more keen to do such stuff in the future should suitable opportunity appears again. I do feel a bit bad though cos i didn't really put in my 100% effort near the end of the paper and the poster design because of certain distractions. Hopefully, everything turn out fine in the end :)

Perfecta oder Imperfecta

Firstly, my condolences to the people of Great Britain and to the people of London especially. This was a most unfortunate event to happen, especially given the jubilation and joy that had been experienced 24 hours earlier. Its really a case of heartfelt joy to heartbreak pain in such a short period of time and i think all other personal problems and stuff seemed so insignificant. Nevertheless, its a reminder to us all (yeah i know its a bit cliche) that we should never let our guard down. London was at its weakest, this morning after all their top personnel had been deployed elsewhere and the feel good factor was all around. (Honestly, speaking, i think this would have happen to whichever city that had won yesterday) Oh well at least they now had a new focus to the spirit of the games. The reason i had wanted New York to win the vote had now been passed on to London and the 2012 games will hopefully be a game that celebrate the victory against terrorism.

Today was the last day of dermatology and things that had happened lead me to think about this word, "perfection" a word that we yearned for in everything that we do. But what do we do if we realised that there is some imperfection in the thing that are presented to us?This is especially so in life, where nothing seemed to be ever perfect. 1. We will grow to like this imperfection and will instead view it as something that makes this entity unique. What others may see as demeaning will appear as lovable and adorable and we will grow to love and live with this imperfection 2. On the other hand, if we are unable to see past this imperfection or if this imperfection is simply too great a thought to bear with, we will view it as a eyesore. Whenever we view it, it will be the first thing that attract our attention. There will be a constant urge to get rid of that thing and our lives will always be miserable if it remains there. Thus the urge to pay big bucks to go through expensive surgery and procedures to make ourelves feel better, to destroy all the imperfection. Which kind of person will u be if u are faced with such imperfection? Haiz... Life...

Je ne peux pas comprendre tout le chose est passe par mon mais je crois ils se passe pour un raison. Je suis triste mais je choisis du croire quel poserait pour moi et peux le ciel donne le paix sur ma ame.