A Delayed Appreciation

Been suffering from bad kharma recently. Seems like everything i had said in the past or maybe did was coming back to haunt me. Think i will realy need to be more prudent about what i said or do from now on.

Anyway, i know its been a week but i think i really felt very blessed that i managed to win the best poster presentation last week at the KKH ASM. I know its a 1-in-4 chance then but must still thank heaven for presenting me with this opportunity. I recalled the disappointment i had when i realised i was not going to France for my elective and the astonishment when i missed out on my first 2 choices of orthpaedics elective posting and eneded up doing my 3rd choice psaeds posting at KKH ICU. I was a bit shell shocked then as i was not even one of those who wanted to do paeds among the people i know. Oh well, i know i stepped into KKH thinking things always happen for a reason and thus went about on my first day of posting apprehensive but happy. I still remembered being given 2 projects to choose from between me and KY. The slackness was still inside me (hangover from hols) and thus i was actually tempted to choose the other proj which i think could be completed relatively fast. But the nice me decided to let KY choose and sadness... he took it and so i was left with the one which need continuous follow-up. I was like oh-no there goes my dream of slacking...

But like what i always believe in, things always happen for a reason. In the end, i actually completed my project before him, him running into problem with protocol and everything, leading to a delayed commencement of his project. And whoa, my paper actually made it all the way to the end. The reality did not really sunk in until the dinner when the presenter used flowery terms to credit my paper and i was like is it really that good? But one thing for sure is that i realised i may have just opened up a path to do paediatrics if i so desire, (just like the video i have filmed for surgery last year), only that this time round its twice the prestige. I really felt very blessed for things to turn out this way, grateful to the way my guiding stars have been watching over me. I mean i went into the elective with expectation of other things and yet i came out of it with something that could have a big impact on me in the future. What else can i be complaining of? Though its true that i have experienced happiness, anger, sadness and joy (xi, nu, ai, le) throughout this 3-month period, my belief that things always happen for a reason remained strong. Just have faith and trust whatever heaven has put in place for me, taking things as they come along. Like they have always been in the past, i believe they will turn out right, impossible as it may seem because i have faith :)